WELCOME TO MY JOURNEY

 I, Mimi Amaral, am truly grateful for the journey I have been given thus far. I feel as if I've lived six lifetimes in one​, and more to come​.

Upon reflection I realize that every step ​I have ​taken and every choice I ​have ​made ​has empowered me toward my truth and healthy self [Authentic Self]. ​I also realize that "Not" ​making a choice is still choosing and doing so surrenders choice [Free Will] to others to direct and navigate my path​.

The spectrum of my journey has consisted of many challenges and bumps as well as beautiful and magical moments. There have been so many experiences and lessons learned along the way. Some that family, friends, and society may consider wrong ​and​ judge, and some that allowed me to ​embrace the beauty of life, expansion, and eternal love [Infinity]. 

All of the above I see as a gift and blessing. Without growing pains there would be no evolution of mind, heart, body, and spirit. I do not feel shame, guilt, or ​less than for any experience along my path. I fully own all my choices. I am grateful for each one regardless of how difficult or joyful because ​each helped me expand in ways, I never even thought possible. With every step I have taken it has helped me focus my truth and sense of healthy self [Self], understand what I want and don't want [Healthy vs. Unhealthy], and allowed me to embrace the woman [Feminine Energy] I am today.

As for relationships: I honor and respect the few men [Masculine Energy] I have been with. Without the experiences with each of them I would not be me. I fully own my part of each co-creation by embracing the expansion, learning the lessons, making the changes, and holding the beauty shared from each experience. I wish each of them all the blessings that life has to offer. I'm very happy to say each of them have chosen to remain my friend and keep in contact over the years.

I think my process of integrating the wounded self-began in my early twenties when I had a very vivid dream.  Within My Dream:

I was standing in an empty, low quality lit room. In fact, the corners of the room were blacked out. While standing alone, gazing into the darkness of the room, I heard a noise coming from the corner. I gently said, "Who's there? Please come out." The small child like figure stepped forward toward me yet remained near the darkness. I walked over to the child and as I knelt down to say, "Hello," I looked into the little girl's eyes and at that moment realized it was me at seven years old.  Within the lucid dream, at that moment as an adult looking into the eyes of myself at age seven, I hugged the child within and then looked into my own eyes to say, "Don't be afraid, I will take care of you from now on." 

That dream was a pivotal moment for me. When I woke, I realized I needed to begin really looking at everything that had affected me along my journey and remain mindful of everything to come that may affect me so to integrate and process as I go. 

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FOOD FOR THOUGHT:

Agreement!!!

“Agreeing” with what you were told-conditioned to believe you are or what life is will prevent you from “Agreeing” with what your Soul/Spirit is trying to empower you to be.

If you are “Agreeing” with the idea that Life and/or Relationships have to be challenging, chaotic, full of conditions, and needing to continuously prove yourself to be loved you will remain in that cycle of “Agreement,” which confirms this idea. That means, if anything different- healthier is presented for your Life-Relationship path it will be questioned, pushed away, run from, and/or self-sabotaged because you are in “Agreement” with what has always been familiar while fearing what is empowering you toward your best healthy self and growth toward the potential for your life’s journey.

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If You Do Not Decide What You Want, Those Surrounding You Will Do It For You, And One Day You May Wake Up Wondering Where All The Time Went, And How You Got To Where You Are.

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INTIMATE RELATIONSHIP:

IT'S A BLESSING TO BE TRULY LOVED, AND TRANSENDENT TO BE MIRRORED AND WITNESSED.
 

Dear Masculine and Feminine ... May we embrace:
 

That “sex,” and sensuality – integrating the senses, is the cosmic union of the masculine and feminine energy, which is a sacred meeting of polarities and that it is NOT solely to reach an orgasm …
 

Masculine: when you enter into a feminine, you are INSIDE of another human being.
 

Feminine: when you open to a masculine, another human being is INSIDE of you.
 

Have we realized how sacred this is?
 

That this is the closest thing to oneness that the masculine and feminine will ever experience, that together this may be held, and that it is a gift for both. That when each separate from one another, the separation as the masculine pulls out of the feminine is felt by both …
 

Being mindful that by joining as one is a rejuvenating, empowering, sacred gift, and that it is a co-creation that is to be witnessed, mirrored, honored, and valued. Masculine and feminine we need to be mindful and aware about why we are entering one another, and what we are filling each other up with…
 

Opening to one another and going deep into each other, while also going deep into the vulnerability of oneself so both may connect more transparently, truthfully, and lovingly will enable the masculine and feminine to witness, mirror, appreciate, and value one another in an affectionate, loving way in order to remain connected. 

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WALKING WITH PARENTS THROUGH END OF LIFE PROCESS:

A Question We May All Want to Ask Ourselves: 

Regardless of the relational dynamics between child and parent[s] we will all face the following question: Do I walk with my parent[s] through the end-of-life process to death, or not?  This is an individual subjective choice, and no one needs to be judged for the choice they make.

Mother: 1943 - 2023 … Father: 1944 - 2013.

During both parent’s process I was able to co-create a safe, confidential, nonjudgmental space for each to transparently confide in me and share their: thoughts, fears, regrets, doubts, secrets, and so much more … Everything disclosed goes to my grave - Not my stories to tell.  I hope during the time shared it helped empower healing for their final transition.  Also, I would like to witness and show gratitude to my parents for trusting me during their process. 

Additionally, by co-creating sacred space with my parents it helped me ask the hard questions, face childhood wounds, feel and work through the pain while healing myself so to NOT project it onto others or pass it to another generation.  During this time, I was able to learn their subjective truth and witness them in a way I could never imagine. I feel blessed to have been able to walk them through the end of life to death; I believe it has been a deep awakening and healing journey for each of us.

If I may suggest: Open the conversation, hold a nonjudgmental safe space, ask the questions that need to be asked, and allow all subjective truths to be heard and witnessed. In addition, try to remember that parent[s] are merely individual spirits on their own journey trying to figure out their path as it unfolds; Just Like You … Parent[s] are: No better, no worse, and have many needed experiences and lessons toward their own evolution. Some parent[s] may choose to embark on their journey of self-actualization toward healing, and some may not. Again no one needs to be judged for the choice they make.

To heal generational conditioning, ancestral trauma and/or relational dynamics so it is not passed to another generation someone must be willing to hold space and go into the darkness without judgment, but to bear witness and face subjective: truth, hurt, fear, sorrow, projections, etc. 

May we all find the strength to hold that container to help the healing process for the sake of our children and future generations.

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HONORING MY PARENTS

At 15 ½ I made two requests for my life’s journey: the first, do not die before my parents. The second, my Soul’s wish and deeply personal. Feeling blessed that both requests have been granted, thank you Universe/Source/Powers that be. 

Dad and mom are together again … I’m truly grateful to both of you for embracing your union in a time when it went against the belief of your families, friends, cultures, and society.  At age 16 [dad] / 17 [mom] you both fully embraced your love to co-create a life for 53 years with 4 children [Rebecca, Richard Jr., Ricky, and me]; dad: Owner/ CEO of DHS Construction Company, and mom: homemaker. 

Thank you for giving me life, for loving me the best way you knew how, for doing better than your parents, and in some ways being an example of courage, resilience, and independent thinking. I’m grateful to have been able to care for you during your last phase of life [dad 2 yrs./ mom 10 yrs.], for the co-created transparent healing process with both of you [you are witnessed], and for being able to hold your hand during your transition … Love you both, Rest in peace.

[Dad: 1944 - 2013 / Mom: 1943 – 2023]. 

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ANSWERING YOUR QUESTION:

The post honoring my parent’s life opened a door for some of you to inquire about my insight on how to hold space and foster a communicative connection with parent[s]. I think the most helpful insight I may share is this: 

May I first suggest doing this sooner than later, and not waiting for your parent[s] last phase of life. Either way, when embarking on this process be mindful about the patience, selflessness, and great care that needs to remain present with yourself and toward your parent[s] during the journey. Especially if this process occurs in the last phase of life because your parent[s] are at their most vulnerable and will need you to protect them, advocate for them, and fully take care of them in every capacity. 

Try to remember that parent[s] are merely individual spirits on their own path carrying the wounds inflicted by their parent[s] and trying to figure out their journey as it unfolds; Just Like You … Parent[s] are: No better, no worse, and have many needed experiences and lessons toward their own evolution. Parent[s] do not have the answers for your journey, only you have the key to your life’s path. When opening the door to communicate, remind yourself to be present to hear and understand rather than listening to reply or react. Hold a nonjudgmental safe space while asking the questions that need to be answered and allow all subjective truths to be held and witnessed. Also, allow your parent[s] to ask you questions that they need answered. If something triggers you during this process, pause for a moment and inquire to yourself, “What do I need to understand or learn so I may heal and make a change.” 

Additionally, I learned many of us are holding voices within that are so loud they silence our own, these perspectives are then reinforced by those we surround ourselves with who have been raised and influenced in the same way. The whispers that hinder us from hearing our own guidance and knowing, and that unconsciously drive us are filled with the: expectations, fears, guilt, shame, regrets, and need for grandiose stimulation that were imposed upon us as children. May I suggest that we all honor our spirit and life enough by taking the time to sift through the voices so we may recognize what is not ours and learn to say, “This is not mine to own.” 

To accomplish this, become still within, take a bird’s eye view, be the observer while using discernment, and begin to ask yourself, “Who’s voice is this?” Just by witnessing the voices it increases self-awareness, which expands the spectrum of vision and understanding allowing you to see which voices are not your own. With time and patience, the identification of where the other voices originated becomes clear. The next step would be to understand the origin of each voice, who it came from, and to begin the healing process so you may learn to hear and trust your own guidance and knowing for your life’s path.   

Finally, remember that some parent[s] may choose to embark on their journey of self-actualization toward healing, and some may not. No matter how much you want to heal it does not mean a parent will be open to take the journey with you, or even have the capacity to do so. If that is the case, then at that point continue to do your inner work and accept their subjective position, without losing focus on your own healing and expansion. The truth is that no one needs to be judged for the choice they make, which includes your parent[s].

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PROCESSING AND NEW BEGINNING

May I begin with eternal gratitude for the gift of breath and life, for I know how fragile it truly is and how blessed I am to wake up each morning – I never take it for granted. 

Innately, I have trusted Cosmic Alignment and Divine Guidance, which has empowered me and always had my back. Though I will never forget where I come from, all the lessons I’ve learned, the healing processes accomplished, the many memories made, and the humans who have touched my life; it is time for me to bear witness that I have exponentially changed on all levels since my first given breath.  

For my continued evolution, this book must close for the first page of the sequel to open. I would like to invite all who genuinely love and support me to continue forward with me for the next part of my journey. I have no idea of who, when, where, or how for my continued path, nevertheless I am open to the abundance, beauty, evolution, fulfillment, joy, and love that may unfold from here. 

Time to step into the unknown … Where everything is possible!!!

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LIFE'S JOURNEY, EMBRACE THE SPECTRUM:

From Science to Spirit, A few great minds that seemed to embrace the spectrum:
 

Albert Einstein:
A physicist seeking to understand the laws of the universe, and expressed in a letter to Hoffman and Dukes, 1946:
 

“The finest emotion of which we are capable is the mystic emotion. Herein lies the germ of all art and all true science. Anyone to whom this feeling is alien, who is no longer capable of wonderment and lives in a state of fear, is a dead man. To know that what is impenetrable for us really exists and manifests itself as the highest wisdom and the most radiant beauty, whose gross form alone are intelligible to our poor faculties; this knowledge, this feeling … that is the core of the true religious sentiment. In this sense, and in this sense alone, I rank myself among profoundly religious men.”
 

Nikola Tesla:
He explored mysticism extensively, specifically Eastern Vedic Traditions. Contribution: Electricity to our fingertips and many free energy technologies. Two great readings: The problem of Increasing Human Energy, and How Vedic Philosophy Influenced Nikola Tesla’s Idea for Free Energy.
 

“When we speak of man, we have a conception of humanity as whole, and before applying scientific methods to the investigation of his movement we must accept this as a physical fact. These ties cannot be seen, but we can feel them. I cut myself in the finger, and it pains me: this finger is a part of me. I see a friend hurt, and it hurts me too: my friend and I are one. And now I see stricken down an enemy, I care least for, and it still grieves me. Does this not prove that each of us is only part of a whole? The Buddhist expresses it in one way, the Christian in another, but both say the same: we are all one.”
 

Issac Newton:
Contributions were Laws of motion, existence of gravity, and worldview that universe runs like a mechanistic machine. Within Sir Issac Newton’s: A short Schem of the true Religion:
 

“Atheism is so senseless & odious to mankind that it never had many professors. Can it be by accident that all birds' beasts & men have their right side & left side alike shaped {except in their bowels} & just two eyes & no more on either side the face & just two ears on either side the head & a nose with two holes & no more between the eyes & one mouth under the nose & either two fore legs or two wings or two arms on the shoulders & two legs on the hipps one on either side & no more? Whence arises this uniformity in all their outward shapes but from the counsel & contrivance of an Author. Whence is it that the eyes of all sorts of living creatures are transparent to the very bottom & the only transparent members in the body, having on the outside no hard transparent skin, & within transparent juices with a crystalline lens in the middle & a pupil before the lens all of them so truly shaped & fitted for vision, that no Artist can mend them? Did blind chance know that there was a light & what was its refraction & fit the eyes of all creatures after the most curious manner to make use of it? These & such like considerations always have & ever will prevail with mankind to believe that there is a being who made all things & has all things … ”
 

Rene’ Descartes:
Considered father of modern science and Western Philosophy; also, his interest in spiritual and mental {mind-body duality}. Within Rene’ Descartes:
Discourse on the Method of Rightly Conducting one’s Reason and Seeking Truth in the Sciences:
 

“That is why, as soon as I was old enough to emerge from the control of my teachers, I entirely abandoned scholarship. Resolving to seek no knowledge except what I could find in myself or read in the great book of the world, I spent the rest of my youth travelling, visiting courts and armies, mixing with people of different temperaments and ranks, gathering various experiences, testing myself in the situations that luck put me into, and always reflecting on whatever came my way so as to profit from it.”
 

David Bohm:
Physicists noted primarily for quantum mechanics, and embraced Eastern philosophies studied with wisdom sages one being Jiddu Krishnamurti. Within David Bohm: Wholeness and the Implicate Order:
 

“I would say that in my scientific and philosophical work, my main concern has been with understanding the nature of reality in general and of consciousness in particular as a coherent whole, which is never static or complete, but which is in an unending process of movement and unfoldment.” 

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Note: Everyone has their own path and will need to decide for themselves how that may or may not unfold. No judgment, no projections, no guilt, no induced fear should ever be thrown or accepted to or from anyone regarding another journey. 
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